If I got no luck this time,
god, please take me to your kingdom.
So that there will be no pain for me anymore.
Please take care of my family.
I want to tell them I am so sorry that
I cannot pull myself together.
But I love them even I may not appear that way.
And tell Jasmie that I am so sorry for all the pain that I’ve caused.
I hope everything goes well for her.
and tell her that I love her so.